Thursday, March 18, 2010

lookin' for silver...

oh, stormclouds...
The medi-Center called today.
i knew it wouldn't be good.
i fractured my patella.
i have a cast (horrible blue & white 'cause those are the only colours they had...) for 6 weeks.
Six weeks.
& no running after that for at least 2 more weeks.
i guess that's why it hurt. so. bad.
Of the clothes that fit me post baby... very few fit me now - post baby, post broken leg.
& i know that i have some big kids - who are amazing - but everyone still needs mama.
Neil needs me.
My attitude has been, *ahem* less than stellar.

Father?
This is such a silly thing for me to be fretting about... i know it.
If you're trying to teach me something - i gotta admit - i've been looking at myself too much to find it... instead of just asking you to show me.
So, teach me.
i will put aside my frustration, my cabin fever, my wants & desires, my overwhelmed heart, my... 'how'm i gonna do everything i need to do now?'
You know everything i need to do... everything i need to be - for all the people who are needing me.
& only You know what i need.
There is a silver lining on this stormcloud...
Help me - see You.
amen

5 comments:

Joy said...

So sorry, hope you heal well and strong.
Will be holding you in prayer.

whoever said...

oh how awful... we'd rather stay in denial and disbelief that such a thing could happen to such a busy beautiful MOM! God Bless you in this trouble. He's promised to be with you in everything... even this tough time.

Erin said...

Paige! I am so sorry! I wish I could come help you out, I cannot imagine... you will find the silver lining and soak up what the Lord has to teach you thru this:)

Mindy said...

Oh, my. Well...maybe it's a chance to focus on "Mary" rather than "Martha." That's something I've been struggling with lately. You're in my prayers...

Carol said...

Oh dear...this will definitely slow you down a little! Hope it heals well and quickly.

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