i wrote these last Friday - but wasn't quite finished when we left for Elmer's funeral... & i know - i haven't blogged about Elmer's funeral... well... i have, but it's sitting in drafts all scattered & unfinished. So, i thought i'd post these *this* Friday anyway.
1. We are going to Elmer's funeral... i found myself thinking just for a fraction of a second the other day, "i wonder if Elmer's gonna call..." & then just this queer ache in my chest that he's not going to call anymore. Death is so final...
2. As the littles & i were discussing bending our plans, cancelling out of committments, when neil would fly home from Toronto etc... mollen piped up, "Yes, but that's not the REAL question... the real question is, WHAT am i gonna wear to Elmer's funeral?"
Yes, dolly... what will you wear? ;)
3. Heeey, my blog got voted for top 25 moms of teens blog. See my fancy new badge? Thanks for voting!
4. My girls put in a story CD (Silas Marner?) to listen to the other day & when the familiar strains from the Focus on the Family song came on, they said they almost simultaneously burst into tears since they listened to the narnia chronicles every night of their "childhoods". Makes me smile - they see their childhoods as the distant past - and i see them blazing triumphantly through the thick of them...
5. Best "Begs Me To Answer" question ever asked:
Neil: Arrrg (yes. Like a pirate) What's wrong with you guys??!! Is everyone in this house dumb, or is it just me?
(awkward pause with tittering giggles...)
6. All the exams are over. The auditions complete. We're making plans for the next year & it feels good to know that we've tucked another year under our belts.
7. i love my Father. i do. Lately when i think about blogging - that's all i come up with. i love Him... He held me this past year & i feel like a child who fell & scraped her knee... He crooned, and picked me up... He examined my wounds and gently cleansed them to keep them free from infection, He comforted me in my anguish and His shoulders absorbed my tears. Now, He's set me back on my feet - and i find myself still looking towards Him with wet eyes - knowing that i am loved.