on resolutions...

Sometimes i'm surprised to find out i'm on the outs for certain things...
"What?? We have to call thongs 'flip flops' now 'cause a thong is a WHAT??"
"They're not knickers? i have to call them 'capri's'?"
"Nobody else on the planet likes cottage cheese?"
& i'm confused in my solitude - to realize that i'm in the minority.
i guess resolutions are kinda like that - i have found that most people either ignore them - or even more so, have a strong dislike for them.
& i'm sure it must be something small, like the texture that turns people off of cottage cheese.. but for me?
i like the funny texture of cottage cheese -
& i like choosing some little thing - and making it my personal lighthouse.
& maybe it's because so much of my life is taken up striving for the goals for others - helping all the little ones progress through their grades in school - keeping Neil's little kingdom orderly - helping babies learn to walk & talk... but there's something that feeds my soul when i say to myself, "And for you, paige - for YOU, i'm gonna try to figure out how to get your little novel published..."
Underneath it all, i do struggle with an unwillingness to admit that i could be worth a little bit of time and effort. & yeh, there's usually a fairly decent chance that i might not successfully complete my resolutions - but they help me get moving, to look up and see a bigger picture, to learn to try again & again...
& sometimes - they might push me to do more than i thought i could...