and even though i know in my heart what it's about -
i can't for the life of me put it into words.
words seem to fail me a lot these days.
it's all tiny grasping fingers - comforting meetings between me and my littlest friends in the night and watching the shades of black shift to grey as i wish for just a few more hours of sleep... i'm in a season of clinging toddler arms, folding big heavy bodies on my lap and not saying a word because maybe they won't want to climb on my lap next week. My days are full of reading - and being read to, of math and correcting writing samples. There's no end to the food being prepared and consumed - both the physical, spiritual and emotional kinds of nourishment... It's no wonder that words have deserted me - it's all gratitude, emotion and fleeting images... but still - this little song keeps begging to be written... The music came easily - the theme - even the title...
But it's the threads of ideas that seem impossible to sort into any kind of a semblance of order.
Can i ask you a question?
What does it mean to you - to be, "used by God"...?