to say to my Father 'use me, use me' - and being ok when He doesn't...
Or to be put in a situation that makes the blush burn my cheeks - but to whisper, 'i wanna obey...' & speak truth to raw grief, to pray to Someone i know - awkwardly for someone i don't...
To wonder why He uses me in my weaknesses - and sometimes not in my strengths.
God is interesting - and i think He wants me to just. be. willing...
Willing to wait -
willing to speak -
willing to be silent -
willing to take action -
willing to say yes -
or no -
willing - & constantly... achingly... vulnerable.