Yeh, i know... i just celebrated my 34th birthday...
But i still have moments of neediness.
i know... i run a big house. i homeschool 5 children while caring for 2 sweet little boys. i cook meals, i do laundry, i work *hard*.
But sometimes, i want my mom.
The other day i wanted my mom.
i wanted to bring her my baby & watch her hold him & laugh over his funny little facial expressions.
i wanted to escape to my mom's house - have tea with her - & sit on her couch.
Just for a minute or two...
i want my mom to come & watch me sing on Saturday.
i want my mom to sew Ephraim some wool soaker "longies".
i want my mom to admire Peyton's title page for her science unit.
i want my mom to offer to drive Cai to her violin coaching - just 'cause she really wants to watch.
i want her to see our usual daily grind - instead of the crazed excitement of a visit after a long absence.
i want my mom to pop in - just 'cause she can - just 'cause she's close - just 'cause we're on her mind...
Neil likes to torment me that i'll never be able to be what i want for all our crew...
i prefer to remember that stranger things have happened than 7 children all living in close proximity to their parents.
& so in the middle of the day - i snuck to the phone... i left a message because they were out on the ocean getting a big fat salmon.
& today she called me back. We got all caught up - & my child's heart was comforted by her warm "dulcet tones" as Ancient One (her father, my grandfather) would say. It has been 15 years since we've lived in close proximity... i wonder if one day - we'll have that again.
But for now, i need to go...
There's a tiny boy...
who wants his mom too.