i wonder if Neil is tired of the salty taste from kissing away my tears?
i wonder if he's as ready as i am to sneak away... to soak in the sunshine that is our mutual company, to strip away every hindrance or barrier that would encumber us for our reprieve?
i wonder if love is tired of being examined, measured frowned over? i wonder if she wants to run spritely free leaving behind the sweet scent of bliss - as our laughter and tears confirm her existence?
i wonder how much my children catch? And how much they miss?
i wonder if i am carving wounds in their sweet spirits that only the ministering of the Holy Spirit can mend, and i beg a merciful God to stay my hand!
i wonder when i'll wake up & i'll find the ache a little less, the memories a little softer and the hope a little stronger?
But mostly, i'm grateful the tears get kissed away, that the reprieve has come. i'm so thankful that i can see our love so clearly and that i have children to worry over. i rejoice over the memories, the hope, and the Saviour who gently leads...
And in wonder, i slip my tiny hand into His, and press on.