will you...

ever know how much -
i would love to look back on these days -
& with a contented sigh -
murmer to your dad,
"i wouldn't change a thing.
Darling, there's not a moment i second guessed myself -
in this magnificent journey of motherhood...
Our children have arisen & called me blessed -
& each problem ironed itself out in the end...
didn't it?"
Instead, i feel myself creeping along, blind.
Sustained by my own gratitude -
and by the trustworthiness of the Gift Giver...
Trusting you to my Father's care as i look for His hand to guide us - & as i do my best to obey.