neil has been using more exclamation points in his texts as of late.
i think he's subconsciously trying to lift me - add a little spark, a little expression, a little excitement to his communication.
"We should have chicken burgers for supper!"
"i took out the garbage!"
"i hope ephraim sleeps tonight!"
& i feel the corner of my mouth curl in a reluctant smile... He's poking me, prodding me to find the happiness amidst my grief.
i'm gonna find my footing, babe... i am.
i'm gonna laugh too loud again & interrupt your stories to tell mine. i'm gonna crush your toes when i stand on them to wrap my arms around your neck and kiss you even when you flinch. i know you have a hard time communicating your love - especially to me right now in my frailty... but i hear it.