Monday, September 8, 2008

September 2008
For Hope.

One chubby cherub ~ seven months old ~
starfish hands ~ reaching, pulling
drooly chin ~ round dimpled cheeks...
bright eyes, sweet grin spreads as his eyes meet mine.

Where is my one year old?
Taking first trembling steps ~
Calling me, 'mamama'...
& feeding himself with dextrous paws...

One is as solid as the pen & paper i hold in my hands
The other ~ but a dream, a shadow, imaginings...

Softly his drumlike chest rises & falls as he rests in dreamland.
My seven month old son slumbers.

Softly... one by one... my fingers clenched 'round the memory of my child who should be one~ are released ~
What should be your first birthday passes ~ quietly...
There will be no cake
no song
no presents with bright coloured ribbons...

Sweet baby ~ the best gift i can offer you is that i carry you with me still. In the deepest parts of me, i still miss you & love you & long for the day we will make our home with the Father *who gave us to each other* & loves us so.

Happy Birthday baby Hope.
momma

6 comments:

Melissa said...

Blessings on you, dear Paige...

Much love,
M.

Anonymous said...

so powerful.
thank you so much for sharing your heart.
I wondered how I would feel this spring when my baby's due date would come and go, and can only pray that I will have a slumbering baby in my arms a year from that date. I just miscarried last Thursday.

Jen said...

P-
You're such an awesome mom.
Thinking about you...

Anonymous said...

you bring hope to so many lives. Thank you for who you are

Mindy said...

What a beautiful tribute to your precious little one. I long for that day when we'll meet our sweet ones at last...

Anonymous said...

Hugs...this is the month I lost my little one 4 yrs ago...very beautiful tribute to Hope!
You are one awesome mom of many and how exciting it will be when we meet our little ones in Heaven!!
LD

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